IndependENCE

So..it has been about eight months since I updated my blog...nice. We have been through a whole lot since that last post. Wes (Wesson) came in October and we moved to Colorado in November. Nate got a new job working as a financial planner. I have been looking for a nursing job but jobs for new graduate nurses with no experience are very hard to come by. Hopefully I can find a night job so we don't have to have a babysitter.

Life is definitely so different with a baby. I don't remember the last time Nate and I cuddled for more than five minutes, the last time I had a bath or sat in a hot tub, and the last time I could easily get up and go somewhere without planning when Wesson would have to eat next and if it would inconveniently be a time when I am at the mall and have to feed him in the dressing room. I know if we had someone watch him I could do those things but I'm not ready for that yet. It could be that not having our own home, he and Nate are the only real constants in my life right now. It has been a really hard past few months. We have had to adjust to a completely different lifestyle and area. I am a very independent person (I am not one of those girls that talks to her mom every day--it is actually about twice a month that I talk to my parents. I started doing my own laundry when I was about 15 and I moved out when I was 18. That doesn't mean I don't love them like crazy though.) and I miss being on our own but I am very grateful for the help we have received. Anyway, I guess what I'm getting at is I realize that it seems a little crazy that I won't have a babysitter yet but I will do it when I am ready.  Oh, and lets not forget the hormones that accompany breastfeeding...yikes! I've never been so attached to someone and so emotional. Poor Nate.

Onto more interesting things...

We are already noticing so much of a personality in our little guy:

1. He loves to stare at this movie poster that Nate's mom has up in the basement with Ashley Judd on it. He smiles SO big. And when I say big, it's like he can't contain it. He must have a little crush already :)

2. He loves to stare at himself in the mirror I put above the seat in the car. Sometimes, he will smile and then he thinks it is someone else smiling at him and smiles back even bigger. It is pretty cute and funny to watch.

3. Pretty much the only way we can get him to sleep during the day without holding him is by putting things on either side of him so he thinks we are holding him and then wrap him in his blankie with his binkie in his mouth. He usually ends up pulling the blanket over his face. I will take it off of his face and when I look back over, it will be back over his face so I just make sure he can breathe and let it be.

4. He is starting to talk a lot! I couldn't get the video to post here for some reason so here is the link to YouTube:

http://youtu.be/9H5NNV1vmMQ

5. This doesn't really have to do with his personality, but it is something I am extremely happy about. He goes to bed around 10:30 every night, wakes up to eat around 5:30, then sleeps again from about 6 to 8:30. It's amazing how much better I feel now that I'm getting long stretches of sleep!

Something we have come to appreciate the past few months is that although we are going through some hard times, our little family is healthy and together and so in love. Sometimes we wonder what we got ourselves into with our little guy (especially with him being sick this week...watch out!) but we can't imagine life without him.